If I was a PIMP (I am a PIMP, but u know) I’d have to powder my hand and BIOTCH SLAP CINCINNATI in the face!
I recently got denied three times from receiving sponsorship from prilosec! Their reason, who knows? I’m just so tired of living in a city that makes it a point to promote it’s crime rate and not it’s talent. I’m so tired of this mid-western conservative nature. I’m tired of meeting new talent that instead of being embraced is going to be shunned. I’m tired of walking down streets where a majority of my neighbors look at me as a freak because I happen to have a fine black chick on my shoulder. I’m tired of having gay friends who are laughed at for exhibiting public displays of affection. I’m tired of inherently diverse fields, such as art, being so clear cut and defined. I’m tired of police officers and neighbors afraid of walking down the streets of Cincinnati because black people are out and about. I’m tired of being told that my videos have to many black people in them. When I go out and film, I walk the streets of Cincinnati. I don’t make it a point to include or exclude anyone, I simply film whoever happens to be on the streets. I’m tired of reality TV being fake, I’m tired of participating in an education system that says my only options are lawyer, doctor, teacher. I’m tired of living in a place that trains people to traverse the safe route and not to chase their dreams. I don’t really know what my life will be like in the next 10, 20, 30, 40 years. I don’t even know if I’ll be alive tomorrow, I hope so But honestly, the only nirvana I can imagine at this point in my life is standing next to Ellen on that stage of hers, screaming “YES!!!” at the top of my lungs, and table hopping like crazy. This is not that far fetched of a dream. This is not an impossibility. I honestly feel for the first men to investigate the fields of science and mathematics. My struggle is to dance with an amazing celebrity. Their struggle was to convince and transform an entire cultural perspective behind the mechanics of existence. But the fact we live in a world where people have walked on the moon, been to the depths of the oceans, and can have their entire genome mapped out is testament to the capabilities of countless people having faith in themselves.

I can’t even begin to tell you how bad I want an internship with some marketing company! How cool it would be to be around other individuals who comprehend the power that is the media industry. From my understanding LA, Hollywood, and movie sets are all real things! But around here it’s as if these “things” only exist within our imaginations. I’m so tired of people going on about not having money to fund this, not having money to do that, while the only thing that truly ever seems to be going on is the opening of another new restaurant. Honestly, if one more company, corporation, or person tells me money is not available to develop this project further, I’m going to cry. We live in a world where people buy million dollar iPhones, golden toilet seats, and hundred thousand dollar collectibles. We live in a county that does not discriminate about spending $8.00 on a pedicure file thing to clean your feet. People choose to spend a quarter to use plastic bags over bringing their own reusable ones. Money should never be an issue concerning project development. The only issue is building the right team and the more I beat my head against this invisible concrete wall trying to find someone who understands interactive marketing in this area, the more I feel like I’m beating a dead horse.

Everyday I wake up and try to organize some new idea, new video shoot, anything to capture the attention of Ellen DeGeneres! People continue to hate on me! Now that Ellen is one of the judges on American Idol people are telling me that maybe before I had a chance, but now, now my odds of dancing with her, let alone ever meeting her are an impossibility. I’m so tired of the negativity. If dancing with Ellen DeGeneres was easy, it wouldn’t be worth doing. As previously written, I remember when people told me I wouldn’t have a website, I remember spending weeks looking for decent camera guys. This whole project from the beginning has continued on despite people telling me that I’d never get to the next step. My mission is to dance with Ellen DeGeneres! That is my dream, that is my cause, and one way or another I’m going to make that happen because the only limitations in life are the ones we place on ourselves. The more people that tell me I won’t, the more girlfriends and family members that lose faith in me, the more people tell me it won’t happen, the more energized I get. The more determined I become at wanting to make it happen.