I’ve spent the past few days doin my grind! Oh I feel so ghetto, but at least I keeps it real! Been walkin up and down the streets dancin with people! Funny how many people go, “That is how Ellen DeGeneres dances!” I’m like, “I know, hence Do the Ellen!” It’s tiring work being the self proclaimed Midwest general, but someones got to do it! I don’t even know if you can count it as work. Every mile I’ve spent each day walkin the streets, dancin, laughing, and huggin people has been energizing! I can feel the potential bundling up from every activity, just waiting for kinetic energy to knock it loose! Due to my buddies ghost on a stick video I’ve energized my thought process a trillion times over. It’s weird how the smallest occurrences can set off huge chain reactions. Considering I live in a world that could be blown away in a literal sense by a very similar mechanism, you’d think this wouldn’t come to me as a surprise!
Despite the many giant strides currently being made by myself and Greg, he really does love Cincinnati, I keep finding myself coming back to the thought of my smibbit! It’s weird how friendships develop sometimes. What’s even stranger is how fond the heart grows when it’s not granted the attention it wants. People are reading this wondering who smibbit is. She’s officially my new BFF! She’s not really one of those friends that I can ever picture not in my life, which is a new life perspective for me with the consideration of my buddy Josh, whom I’ve been friends w/since 5th grade! It’s also very weird for me to have a BFF that I want to fuck all the time! I don’t know what it is, just somethin about her. It’s the strangest things that make her sexy. Her ridiculously annoying laugh. The horrible way she dresses. The way she breathes when she’s excited. Don’t even get me started on how poorly manicured her hands are. But it’s the countless imperfections within her that make her special. It’s the faulty aspects that make her someone I’ll keep around. It’s because of these and countless other aspects any chick I ever meet in the future is goin to have to gain her approval. Sometimes I find myself wondering if I really want her to approve!
They’re a lot of similarities with this relationship and my passion to pursue dancing with Ellen DeGeneres! For starters, back when I started the project I questioned my ability to get the ball rollin. But everyday that I didn’t spend fondling it, the more I wanted to do it! The more I needed to do it! The more I told myself I was goin to do it! Our dreams, ambitions, and passions are part of us. They make us who we are. It’s because of these desires that we craft and mold our lives the way we do. When we ignore them our hearts grow fond. The longer we try to bury how much we value them, the longer we lie to ourselves, the more we start to dislike ourselves for not being ourselves.
Much as my affection towards my friend, the imperfections in our plans of execution are what make our dreams truly something worthy of our seduction. The day’s that don’t go right, the meetings that end bad or produce nothing. The people and entities that try to shoot you down and at times get to you a little. Each victory, each success, each day that goes better than expected. Each time something unexpected occurs in your favor, these are the moments that make the bad so much more palatable. These are the moments that actually make the sour hours sweet and succulent. These are the moments where you step back and go, “Damn, it’s not what I pictured it to be like, but I can’t wait for the next time I have to work my way through something dirty, just because I like a challenge!” Eventually all the things that stress us out are going to be the best stories for us to tell. These are the events that make our journey, our pursuit for our dream ours. These are the obstacles that make it real. When we love the imperfections, we know our feelings are true! This is how we know the object of our pursuit are an entity of value. Because truthfully when you’re on your journey, even when it’s rough it’s still fun, cause you’re doing your thing
